This is where I'm living my OWN dreams.. And NO ONE can take my dreams away from me cause they are part of me.. This is where I express myself, the words I can't verbally say it out, the feelings I can't that I can't let them out..
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Saturday, 7 December 2013
Tuesday, 19 November 2013
Play-doh different 100 play sets..
Watch this!!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tK2o-77usfk&feature=youtube_gdata_player
Sunday, 10 November 2013
'Aku dan si dia' Written by me..
Hey peeps so sorry that it's been awhile I wasn't active.. So anyway, I've wrote a short story while I've been busy.. Hope u like it..
'Ya Allah, ya Tuhanku.. Hambamu di duniamu ini memohon padamu supaya mengampunilah segala dosa-dosa Irfan yang telah pergi sebelumku. Ampunilah dosanya yang dia telah lakukan selama ini. Yang zahir dan batin, yang disengajakan ataupun yang tidak..'
Air mata mula jatuh membasahi pipiku tanpaku sedari. Betapa rindunya aku terhadap dia. Bayangan Irfan masih segar dalam ingantanku, di khayalanku, di kelilingku. Aku masih tidak dapat melupakannya. Aku terasa bagaikan dia masih berada di bilik ini bersamaku, menemankanku. Aku rasa kehadirannya.
Irfan. Jejaka yangku sayangkan dengan sepenuh hatiku. Jejaka inilah yang selalu di ingatanku setiap hari. Dialah yang telah banyak mengalah dan berjasa padaku. Tetapi tidak pun satu aku melalukan padanya. Surat yang ingin aku berikan padanya tidak dihantar. Aku menyesal. Ia masih duduk di atas mejaku bersama cincin yang diberikannya. Aku masih ingat setiap perkataan yang ditulis di surat itu. Jikalau dia dapat membacai surat itu, tentu ini tidak akan terjadi..
"Irfan, I know you'd be leaving soon but I just wanted you to know that you're the best thing that ever happened in my life. You are the light in my life. You are my hope that kept me going. You never failed me to cheer me up. You are my world..
Irfan, before you go. I want to say thank you for being there for me when he wasn't. I know it was in the past but if it wasn't for you, I'm very sure I wouldn't be here. You knew exactly what I need and how to put a smile on my face..
I fell in love with you the moment we first met on July. You're like a sign, an Angel sent for me. Cause there's something about you that I had to know more. Your eyes are always shining for me. And as you stood there in front of me, you're trying to get my heart, my attention. You were wearing your full unit and I just couldn't contained myself. You're so perfect and it killed me to know that. And that was the moment I fell for you when you smiled at me even though you feel that you had the worst smile on Earth. I love you at that moment but as you know I was with him then. I just couldn't stopped myself from falling for you. You were a diamond in front of me and you still are no matter what..
The reason I'm writing this letter is to beg you not to go. I know how much this mission means to you but please don't go. I just can't bear to leave you all alone in the sea, in the unknown land ahead of you, the danger you'd face. Please Irwan don't go. I know you've heard my plead for million of times but please don't ignore this. Please stay here. I'd do anything if it would mean for you to stay cause you meant so much to me. Plese don't go.."
Aku menyesal. Aku menyesal kerana tidak dapat berada disana bersamanya. Sepatutnya aku yang harus pergi dan bukan dia. Aku telah lakukan terlalu banyak dosa padanya dan pada setiap insan. Tetapi tidak, dialah yang pergi sebelum aku. Tidak sempat untuk aku meminta maaf padanya..
"Irfan, please forgive me. Please forgive me and all my wrongdoings. I didn't mean to hurt you. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry for being selfish towards you, for thinking all about me and myself. I'm so sorry for neglecting you even though you gave everything up for me. I was so stressed up with my own world that I didn't care for you. You were always there for me and all I did for you was nothing. And I couldn't turn back the time cause I could, I'd change for the better. I'd changed for you.
I know I wouldn't get to see you again for years if you choose to go and by then I know I can't stop you. It's your mission and it's your life. But please remember that you are a part of me. You are my other half of my heart. You are my world. If you go, you're leaving an empty hole in my heart.."
Irfan. Dia telah meninggalkanku dengan kekosongan. Dia pergi tanpaku. Aku hidup dalam kesakitan, keseorangan semenjak hari itu. Tiada sesiapa yang dapat pulihkan hatiku yang dalam kesakitan ini. Tidak ada seseorang yang dapat melakukannya seperti dia. Hanya dialah seorang yang dapat pulihkan hatiku yang cedera ini, tetapi apa yang dia tinggalkan hanyalah kenangan aku bersama dia.
"Irfan, I'm very sure you'd remember all the places that we went to and all the things we talked about. I want you to treasure them just like the way I do. To be honest, I even went back to those places to keep our memories alive. They brought back great memories to me especially the one where we went to the waterfront and where you first fed me with the cake that you brought for me. It was also the time where I played hard for you to get me. And I can't believed that it was that place too where you confessed to me. I was glad and thankful that you too had feelings for me. October the 11, I still remember the date. It was the best of all places we went and I will never forget that place most importantly.."
Titisan air mataku turun semakin laju. Mataku berkaca dan tidak ada sesuatu benda yang dapat aku lihat dengan terang. Tetapi aku masih dapat merasakan kehadiran Irfan di sekelilingku, memelukku dengan erat, bermain dengan hujungan rambutku. Aku seperti boleh merasakan ciuman segar bibirnya dipipiku. Hairan. Tidak mungkin dia boleh berada disisiku. Hanya aku keseorangan di bilik ini.
"Irfan, remember the time where I met with an accident and you had a bruise on the same spot as me for no reason? Do you remember telling me that we are fated to be together? That we both will feel each other's pain and success? And remember the times where we fought through obstacles together? Supporting each other's back? Do you remember those? I do. Cause it feels like that you are part of me then and now. You really are the other half of my heart.
Every night I prayed and hoped that you'd accompany me throughout my every day life. Even if we're miles apart from each other, we can still be at each other's side no matter what. I know you may think that its stupid but that is what I always do every night. I forced myself to believe that you are with me every night, accompanied me in my sleep. And true enough, it feels like you yourself always appeared in my room every night without fail even though we stayed apart. Yes, its just my imagination dear.."
Tidak mungkin Irfan boleh berada disisiku. Ini semua adalah imaginasiku, khayalanku. Rupanya selama ini aku memaksa diriku untuk percaya bahawa dia masih lagi hidup. Kalaulah dia dapat membaca apa di hatiku saat ini dan mungkin surat ini lah dapat aku luahkan semuanya. Dia seharusnya membaca surat ini sebelum dia pergi dan dia boleh berjanji padaku kembaliannya. Aku kesal kerana tidak memberikannya pada saat dia pergi.
"Irfan. If you really choose to go, please promise me that you'll take good care of yourself out there and please please promise me that you'll come back to me once your mission ended. Come back to me and married me just as you promised, just as how you planned it. Please come back..
I still need you. Your family still needs you. Think of them. Please don't ever leave us here. Think about your parents too. Don't ever hurt them. Promise them that you'll come back. Cause we'll be there to fetch you when you come back. I promise that with my heart.."
Secara tibanya aku teringat kembali sewaktu dia berangkat pergi. Ibubapanya sibuk memerluknya. Dialah satu satunya anak pertama mereka, abang pada adik-beradiknya. Dia tidak berpatah perkataan padaku, hanya ungkapannya menunjukkan kepadaku kesakitan dan kesunyiannya. Waktu itu aku tidak peduli akan petunjuk yang diberikannya, aku terlalu sibuk melayankan adik kecilnya.
Kini, baru aku sedar akan makna ungkapannya itu. Aku menyesal kerana tidak dapat membalas pada petunjuknya itu. Aku menyesal. Mengapa aku bodoh sangat? Dia inginkanku bersuara, meluahkan hasratku. Tetapi saat itu aku hanya membisu sahaja. Aku menyesal. Dia sedar akan keadaanku dan dia inginkanku meluahkannya. Tetapi, tidak. Aku tetap membisu. Aku kesal sekarang.
Kini aku sedar. Hanya aku sahajalah yang dapat menyelamatkannya. Tindakanku sahajalah yang dapat selamatnya dari kemalangan itu. Aku. Mungkin akulah punca dia pergi. Akulah yang sepatutnya meninggalkan tempat ini. Aku dan bukan dia. Aku yang seharusnya disalahkan. Aku.
"Irfan, please remember that I'll always love you. No matter how far we are, no matter how much pain we've caused to each other. And wherever you are, I'll be there with you. No matter how far you are from me, I'll be there with you. Remember that I will always love you and nothing can tear us apart.."
Aku menuju ke jendelaku. Aku sedar akan apa yang harus aku lakukan. Cuaca yang berangin ini membuat niatku semakin kuat. Membuka pagar itu, aku duduk diatasnya. Aku terasa dan terbayang seperti dia melakukan yang sama. Aku tersenyum lebar. Aku boleh merasakan yang aku semakin dekat dengannya. Aku boleh berada dimana dia berada sekarang. Aku akan berjumpa dengannya dan akan bersatu dengannya lagi seperti biasa. Dan tidak ada satu pun boleh memisahkan aku dengannya.
'Ya Allah, tempatkan kami dalam golongan yang Engkau redakan..'
Irfan. Irfan. Irfan. Maafkanku sayang..
*It's a frictional story* - H
Sunday, 22 September 2013
Sunday, 1 September 2013
Love.. It has 2 different stories to it..
Monday, 26 August 2013
"Miley Cyrus"
Monday, 19 August 2013
"Be Appreciated.."
Tuesday, 13 August 2013
.Untittled I.
The freedom of voice.. Well that to me, is what lacking in the world nowadays.. It can be a simple gesture of voicing out an opinion or letting out the uneasiness at heart.. Simple as it can be seen, however, riots and fights took place just because they were treated unfairly..
I've come to witness young children growing up in hatred, youths learning what we call Violence, the society turning into a downtown where gangsters and Ah Longs live in.. Can we not have this mindset where there are separation between the different categories of "well-educated" and the "low-class"? I mean take a look around you.. Everyone is the same: Even though we look differently by the color of our skin or the language we speak but we all have a heart that are beating at the same beat..
It's really sad to see the younger generations growing up in this world and not knowing what is Peace and Harmony.. It's like teaching them to misbehave.. And if I really think ahead, the world will be a chaos and wars going on everyday.. Just imagine that future, do we want to live in that duration??
Well honestly, sometimes I feel that way too.. People don't appreciate my presence, my opinions.. It's like I've got no voice to say anything, to say what I want to say and that no one wants to listen to any of my words.. Yeah and sometimes I feel like I'm nothing to the society, to the world.. I'm just a thing in the world.. It's such a pity to know that a human being with a heart is treating others cruelly.. Can we just live peacefully with each other??
Well 'The World' from my view, is amazing in its own way that it can be both a wonderful and cruel place to live in.. Take a look around you; I'm very sure that there are something that's not right or perfect or that it doesn't fit into the society.. That's 'The World' that I came to learn..
So back to my topic, some people have the basic rights to voice out an opinion while some didn't get to own the rights.. Let's take it this way; Two people could be living in a same place, but one of them might not enjoy the same opportunities provided for the other one.. Imagine the feeling that this particular person feels knowing that he did not get to enjoy something that the other person enjoys..
So, to sum up everything..
" Appreciate and respect others no matter how different they are from you.. Take the time to understand others and listen up to them when they speak up.. It could be just a small conversation about their favorite things or the events that happened in their day, to the heart-to-heart conversation.. It could be about anything and everything.. They'll feel thankful that they are worth a talk and that someone really listens to them.."
Wednesday, 7 August 2013
.Untitled.
Monday, 5 August 2013
Saturday, 27 July 2013
Perfect
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just wanna make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
Can't pretend that I'm alright
And you can't change me
'Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
I try not to think about the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just wanna make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
'Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again (right again)
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard just to talk to you
But you don't understand (you don't understand)
'Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
'Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
"Mirrors"
'Cause your shine is somethin' like a mirror
And I can't help but notice
You reflect in this heart of mine
If you ever feel alone and
The glare makes me hard to find
Just know that I'm always
Parallel on the other side
'Cause with your hand in my hand and a pocket full of soul
I can tell you there's no place we couldn't go
Just put your hand on the glass
I'll be tryin' to pull you through
You just gotta be strong
'Cause I don't wanna lose you now
I'm lookin' right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now
And I'll tell you, baby, it was easy
Comin' back here to you once I figured it out
You were right here all along
It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else beside of me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making two reflections into one
'Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me
Aren't you somethin', an original
'Cause it doesn't seem merely a sample
And I can't help but stare, 'cause
I see truth somewhere in your eyes
I can't ever change without you
You reflect me, I love that about you
And if I could, I would look at us all the time
'Cause with your hand in my hand and a pocket full of soul
I can tell you there's no place we couldn't go
Just put your hand on the glass
I'll be tryin' to pull you through
You just gotta be strong
'Cause I don't wanna lose you now
I'm lookin' right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now
And I'll tell you, baby, it was easy
Comin' back here to you once I figured it out
You were right here all along
It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else beside of me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making two reflections into one
'Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me
Yesterday is history
Tomorrow's a mystery
I can see you lookin' back at me
Keep your eyes on me
Baby, keep your eyes on me
'Cause I don't wanna lose you now
I'm lookin' right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now (please show me, baby)
I'll tell you, baby, it was easy
Comin' back here to you once I figured it out
You were right here all along
It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else beside of me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making two reflections into one
'Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me
Friday, 19 July 2013
Fearless
The street looks when it's just rained
There's a glow off the pavement, you walk me to the car
And you know I wanna ask you to dance right there
In the middle of the parking lot
Yeah Oh yeah
We're driving down the road, I wonder if you know
I'm trying so hard not to get caught up now
But you're just so cool, run your hands through your hair
Absent mindedly making me want you
And I don't know how it gets better than this
Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance in a storm in my best dress
Fearless
So baby drive slow 'til we run out of road in this one horse town
I wanna stay right here in this passenger's seat
In this moment now capture it, remember it
Cause I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance in a storm in my best dress
Fearless
Well you stood there with me in the doorway, my hands shake
I'm not usually this way but you pull me in and I'm a little more brave
It's the first kiss, It's flawless, Really something, It's fearless.
Oh yeah
Cause I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance in a storm in my best dress
Fearless
Cause I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance in a storm in my best dress
Fearless
Oh-oh
Oh yeah
Monday, 15 July 2013
THIS IS SOOO UNBELIEVABLE!!!
Speaking of which.. Guess what?? My boyfriend just brought me the most expensive and valuable gifts I could ever receive from a guy.. Yes, if you were in my place now you'll be shocked.. Very shocked..
He brought me a full collection of Victoria's Secret: Sexy Little Things Heartbreaker and Crumpler bag. Here is the evidence (Ladies, prepare to be jealous):
However... He'll be leaving for his deployment anytime and yeah it means we're gonna be apart for a long time.. yeah.. Ohh and I'm looking forward to the day he will return.. Because.. He promised me that he will ask me for marriage on the day he return.. Really can't wait!!
Saturday, 15 June 2013
Hi There!!
Hi there!! Yup that's my name: Habibah, which also means Love in Arabic.. Cool right??
So here I am, "trying" to find the perfect boyfriend..
- He has his own NICHE.. Something that he loves to do or he has been doing it for awhile.. It is something that I find it interesting..
- He has an INFECTIOUS LAUGH.. This means that he could be an easy-going type and he is able to make me laugh especially when I'm down.. Or at least meke me smile :D
- He is someone that I TRUST and I COUNT ON.. He is always there for me when I'm down or when I need a shoulder to cry on.. I am a very demanding girl (I can be) and I need a guy that is patience and tolerant to me.. He never gives up on me even when I'm stubborn towards him..